Mid-Life Living

My worst fear as a spouse is letting my partner down and not providing for my family. Maybe my views are a little “old school” as the husband, I feel that pressure to provide and hit the mark 100% on every aspect of marriage and raising our kids. Sadly, I miss that mark, or I make mistakes. Missing the mark can always be made up, but making a mistake in a marriage takes time and patience to renew the bond. I speak from experience, and I am not a perfect husband. I have made mistakes along my 16-year marriage, and my biggest mistakes are not communicating. Not communicating my feelings, not communicating my finances, and not communicating my physical state. I keep it pinned up, I shoulder things and keep going. It is this military type mindset I have framed for 26 years, I need to begin to get out of that mindset for the sake of my marriage, sake of my sanity, and ease my future retirement transition. I have lived my worst fear as a spouse a few times: letting my partner down. It is the worst feeling ever. I take my partner’s feedback, and I do not make the same mistake, but everything marriage revolves around communication. Please let me know what your worst fear is. What do you work through to not let your spouse down? Thank you for taking the time to read and have a blessed day.